after all

After all

I have this app notify me everyday at 9:09pm to write. I have seen it for about a year now since the last time I have written was 2025 in feb. I wanted to say that I find energy is hard to come by sometimes it overlaps, like the circles that are totally different you separate the ones completely since they so not have anything in common. The ones that do you can put them together and the things that are similar to each circle overlaps in the middle and the things that are similar are put there in the middle. I find energy can be like this. It can be up and down and all over. I find that people have their own set of energy inside of them, with their own motives, behavior, reasons, shadow work, routines, that will hinder their own field, and the field of others around them. I find this to be true as I can see everything unfolding everyday with the same interactions of the same characters around me. The same patterns, the kind of nutrition. The kind of attention. The kind of content consumed. The kind of energy. On repeat every day. I find myself tied up in these thing of others more then I need to be lately. These observations aren’t reflections of my own inner self projecting. Or any other kind of innuendo type of argument as far as I can see from moon view down to earth to the microscopic pin point view. 

I find the energy that is inside of me can be hindered at times, that my mind is a magnet and it is dying for a kind of connection to keep it level and grounded. The kind of feeling I had before I started experimenting with drugs unfortunately. I find that the energies from others or even myself sometimes can be altered in good and bad ways, and lately I have been encountering some what neutral to bad energies somewhat. I find that I can be in a flow state sometimes, with things in my control, alone, in a blissful state , which I can conduct my own path without a worry. I find things that drag me down, the world of things, and those in need I cannot turn my back on for it would hurt more to me if I did. The sole reasons of being is aiding and protection of those yet the routines of my own make it difficult at times to get thru to those who need the aiding and protection in a healthy manner is far distant. The idea of gorilla tough love can be sought but has not helped in the past which doesn’t go well over todays society and just causes harm most of the times when used. 

Finding that I get back to a healthy routine of being, a place of gnosis, a place of solid mind and state that doesn’t bend in any weather of mind, time or place would be a drastically different world. Yet the conspiracies that go on are just truths disguised, make ones mind and body less receptive to the inner Devine. 

The trend of today is suffering. You cannot be successful without suffering. The one who suffers the most will be the most likely to succeed. Fuck that, each traumatizing event hinders sacred energy within. Have enough suffering, ptsd, give up, stuck routine, wont make it out the ditch dug by suffering,  trauma catches up and claims you. Avoid negative energy. Do not even feel negative energy. Replace all negative energy. There is more to follow I will explain further the directions to take to get well. If you are well to further a happy state within the soul, mind, and body. -tangiblethomas